i'm back!

pheww..after a long time,finally i'm back home updating my blog..its been a long time that i never drop any updates here!ye i'm busy..indeed,very busy.But i love my busy life rather than having so much time sitting doing nothing like stupid..hahaxx!Assignment is adding me some more commitment and task to do and its too much for this sem..there was 5 assesment in one assignment..Damn aite!Life was smoothly goes on..gonna wait n see what happens next..today got discussion with Dayang..my coursemate..@ Marry Brown..

yes its true...

i'm feeling damn lonely..









*cryingthroughtherain_mode

september

Indeed!!

september mmg ku nanti2kan ketibaannya..
sbb aku akan busy..
teda ms utk 0n9,
blom gik esaimen menjelmakan dirinya..
tiap mlm keja..

Happy
Sibuk
Active

but

Tired!!!

i'm back

✿

hurmmm..mengeluh lok..hahah,lama dh xupdate blog,almost 1 week kali.bz lalu jak bunyi ku tok ooo..agak la,mok mdh bz sgt tu xjugakk la..fmly was here in kuch so thats y la xterfikir mok on9..having happy hour with family,fevret aku la tu..since dh keja ni agikla less time for facebook n blogger..but as long i'm having my cuti raya now,still got time for on9 biarpun sikijap tetap ku rezep masa utk update blog n facebook..well,friends is all in there..they are part of me..now i'm tired oredy..wanna sleep..will be updating soon..bye gudnite..

✿

still..

i dont know what i'm thinking or what i'm feeling right now..but its there inside my mind.Banging my head with tons of rubbish to think about..its all started with a single stupid sms from a friend that i close to while i was i f5..huehhh..and he dont even know that his message will make a chaos there inside my heart n mind..its killing me softly..i was just to 4get those past memories with him but he bring it back plus adding some more new issue..aiyoooo..how could that be??from where did he get this rumors..now that make me crazy!!!..
HANTAM JAK LA SIA>>

1st day @ work

01 September 2010 :: yeahh..i can adapt myself,thats is on the 1stday of working..what happens next we'll see..haha..they are friendly and i'm not feeling awkward at all although i was new there.. i think i like this workplace because the surrounding is full of toys meaning that i have no time to stress or feeling tension here..njoy the duty given..so,the conclusion is i'm happy for doing this,no regret n no hesitation..tireddd..nahh thats normal,no pain no gain aite???heeee..~


*baru sehari kja ku dah fikir psl gaji..hurmmm..haruss2!!

what we have for merdeka..

-->something interesting to tell about..barbeque for independence day..hahakss excited!fetch by Bro Balent to Matang Family Park for Nangkat Salako's Merdeka Bbq..were having so much fun..meeting new friends eciting me..hehe..arrive around 10 am and back around 4 pm..it was great to have an activity like this..mengeratkan silaturahim sesama kami..hehe..mcm2 perangai..cant stop laughing!!sporting jakkk even ada yg ptama kali jumpa..mcm family da...here's some of the picture..

....theres a lot more pictures but i'm too tired to upload it all..mayb 2moro..so tired n sleepy.2moro there will be clas in the morning form 9-12..lazy mode!!! N my part time job will also starting 2moro..can i adapt myself???hueee...we'll wait n see..oraiithhhh..chowww..nanite!!

Sungguh minta Puji..ko diam!haha..

*bagi pis seja aku..kazen terkijik2...



*yeahhh..buat muka asa kiuttt..



*2saja ka ko tau..pis2..



*uhurmm..apa2 ntah..

.......yap mmg kami mintak puji..apalagi aku,so what??hehe..taim balik kpg bha ni..keburingan ku memuncak dan kegilaan ku melanda..inilah hasilnya..gambar yg sangat menyakitkan hati sesetengah orang..tengok c kazen tu senyum2 saja xmo menoleh takut masok longkang dia bilang..betul jugak kan,.kuteruskan juga asal kazen xmarah..normal la tu mood balik kpg...=D

.s.t.r.e.s.s.e.d.o.u.t.

• i can feel that busyness is in the air..n i'm ready for it..that's not the problem but there's so much thing that i have to think which is messing up my mind n i'm stressed enough!!wish that i can go to a place where i can take a deep breath and set my soul and mind free..phewwwww!!The depression that i want to improve myself is killing me slowly n keep banging my head down but i will not stop there until i get what i want in my life..this is the challenge that i had challenge my self n i have to work it out..i must work hard!!i have so much dreams n will achive it 1 by 1..nothing impossible in Jesus Name..Amen!!!

p/s : i wanna be somebody..i mean it!!

niat hati nak dye rambut..

• dh xpasti bapa kali delay dah niat mok kaler rambut..too much worried nnt rambut rosak,dan memang xdapat nak dinafikan,sbb ku pnh kaler once n it damage my hair..sedeyyy..rambut kering n mati..hemmmm..berapa taun yg lepas la n that is the 1st time ku dye rambut..sekarang ni muncul lagi keinginan tu..n still in progress..haha..ni dia gambar2 kaler rambut yg jd byngan aku siang dan malam..

• this will be my 1st choice,dark cekelet,or lite cekelet pun ok gak..shantekkk!!xmo kaler2 yg terlalu menonjol cam kene kilat..paka??heee..or batalkan niat aku mok kaler n just stay with my natural black hair..hemmm...need advices in here...tp aku ni xmakan advices pun kalo dh itu yg aku nak..mayb 1 day bila dah ada keyakinan n kekuatan ku pigi dye rambut..haha..mcm org mok p perang jak ayat..
  

Mr Big - To Be With You (with lyrics)

lets check it out >> this song were just inspiring me..i've heard it once and i heart it straightaway,hope that someday i will find my true ❤,say : Amen!hehe..well,just njoy the song the way you want it be..but remember to pause the current song tuned in below..for maksimum enjoyment..ngee.. ❤ it so much!!!!very2 much!!!

..:: hari ini EMO ::..

yaa aaa aawwww!! that will be the introduction..
huee,yet i got no idea what to start with..
i pretend to be as calm as an angel but deep inside my heart only God knows the circumtances that i had..
it has been a disaster inside there due to my prediction..
haha,the crapping me!!
I will never know whether i have to take it seriously or just keep it nagging itself inside my head..
but it do bothering my daily life,just let it be larhhh..
till i find up the true solutions..
its not that important comparing to my future..
heee,thats me..i can motivated myself on my own..
yeahh..all i need is a peace of mind!
i'm craving for it..

what for sunday?

This is my sunday diary :

• 10:00 am -off to church,am playing tambourines 2day,theres new patterns used..n i'm a bit lost as it was new to me..xpew!bole cuba lagi..=D
• 12:45 pm -Service ended,go for lunch 8 Da Light food court,n u gotta believe that this is the 1st time that i eat there..haha..nm jak stay d Kuching..
• 02:30 - Selesai lunch,balik umah kejap then trus heading to Semenggoh Wild Life Centre ngan kakak,abg ipar,n kazen Mieno,nothing interesting..cuma melawat orang utan..terserlah sakainess ketika tiba d situ..
• 04:30 -From Semenggoh,singgah d psr ramadhan Batu 7..beli brg mamam k sungke..hahaha,sungke gilak la niena yaa..bluerk!
• 06:15 -Arrive home..hmm..tired owh!lipat kain jemuran n tgk tibi n mamam..mok tdo tapi..
• 06:30 -Diana meses "Na,kul 07:15 lak ku ambik kau,lepak2 kjap ngan KizT skali"..yawww,mcm bez jak bunyi..Word LEPAK ya yg menarik perhatian aku..mmg menarik abis la sampai aku tertarik n kukorbankan tidurku dan lepak-ing bersama temen-temen gue..Sonok!!jumpa kwn2..2ka2 cita n masalah..(BERGOSIP KALI NAK??) ngekkkkk!!kol 11:15 buk balit..having great time with u ladies..Diana Dordie & Christie Ratu..=D

nahh..thats all 4 sunday..i'm tired+sleepy+angol+malas+lemah tok mok landing dah..babaii..nanite!

annoying last nite~

Mlm tadi pegi MBO The spring ngan sis & abg ipar,mo tinguk midnight muvi entitle The Expendables..Bez cita tu,action muvi la..and theres 2 thing annoying me there :

-->1st,while were at the counter to buy a tickets then the person incharge ask us.."ada sapa2 yg msh skolah?'..then dengan yakinnya ku menjawab.."yep,i am!"..then she answer me back,sorry miss you cant see this movie..its 18SG..n i was like.."ARGHHH??" then only i answer her.."i am 22 oredy bha..thought that u wanna offer a cheaper ticket for students just now...sighhh..='(,yes i'm schooling but im the college students..ghhh!

-->2nd,while waiting for our movie to start at 1045,we go for a coffee at setarbak (Starbucks Coffee) at the ground floor n we manage to get some sweets chewies from the other shop..My bro n sis buy some mentos while i buy a lollipop which look Cool (eleh cool gilak la ya) to me for teenager.haha gila..yes i am!!whatever...then straight away walking to the auditorium 5 for our movie are going to start in a short while..then..at the entrance,there are few malay teenage guy standing there as they are the customer services on duty.I was walking with my lollipop inside my mouth and when i pass by the guy said.."shiiiooo..mbak lollipop,kamek pun ada juak lollipop"..n they laugh like STUPID PIG!!!!n deep in my heart said..Dasar Sik Skolahhhhhh!!BOd0!!i know what that "Pig" mean about..his D**K!!nahhh..muka cam sudu bengkok!!

---> ini aku suka <---

some of my collection..hee,normal kan teenage girl kumpul bnda mcm nih walaupun ianya :

• membazir (duit aku pa kau duli)
  

• xpenting (dah ku xda benda yg lebih penting mo buat??)
  

• xmengenyangkan (cekelet lagi nyaman dr ni )

• xberfaedah lansung..(ku xminat gilak wat bnda berfaedah =D)
  

juz for fun k..wakakak!semadi ku boring2 during pastime tok la kja sampingan aku..haha,ngecat mengecat kuku.Da mcm2 jns,i mean the brand..salu i pigi beli :

1. Emily coz murah and better quality,
2. Elianto sum times,
3. Crystal Dior yang xbrpa bagus coz sum of it akan meninggalkan kesan kuning pada kuku,
4. Orlly yang just ok,
5. Wishy nice,
6. Special Colour and so on..
   

xigt gik dah..banyak dh buang coz dh keras,mmg xdpt simpan lama pun menda nih..sbb kalu tahan lama toke cakap nnt kita xkan dtg beli lagi,so barang dia xlaku..hohuhiheha..thats all for 2day,satu lagi pasal diri saya yang anda dapat tau..daaa..

2 things awaiting......

♣ schedule kuliah dah kuar,terkezutt bila tgk da 4 subjek dis sem..biasa 3 jak..but the best part is suma klas morning 9-12,then ku boleh wat keje lain..huhu..but sis said must struggle coz da 4 subjek den have to go for a part time job that i wanted too..hue,wat to do kan..cuz i ❤ to be bz..ahahaha...i can do it..time management itu penting.so..new students will be in our class,n will meet new friends n new classmate..i like!!cant wait..1st class will be on 30th August 2010..

♣ Part time job in Toys 'R' Us..Starting 1st september 2010,RM4 per hour..not so bad..heeeee...will be working after class n earn money for my own..buleh suping lepas nie..ngaaaaa...lepas gian dh lama x pegang duit sndiri since start study nie..seksa woo xda income even kakak bg duit everytime needed tp rs mcm xpuas cz bukan duit sendiri..dh besar panjang ni malu n segan pun ada part2 mntak duit ngan dak family..hahaha..after this,mayb wiken xbalik kpg,dh kja la katakan..hee..pengorbanan itu harussss..wawawawa...

so what if i'm single?

-->yes i'm single..hemmm,dats y la u people cant see any of my post written about my boyfriend or either about love..i used to fall in love few years ago while i was in form6,he's an ibanese from a village nearby where we school.We have been in a relationship for almost 2 years b4 we break up..but unfortunately,we break off for certain reason.. *only both of us know y*,not to blame any1,nobody is perfect.He manage to get a better gov job and leave me n his family for a better future,it goes smooth at the beginning but it end up with lots and lots of problem when were apart by distance...He's my 1st love n i never think that i'll lost him one day but it do happen n it really dissappointing me!!Losing him feels that my world has stopped spinning..furthermore,i was a person who are unable to tell anybody about my personal problem..so it really sucks that i have to faced it alone and used to cure my heart on my own..really SUCKS!!!!this is the worst part of my life..What can i say is that i love him so much but i can do nothing for my love life..were over and i got nothing to do with it now.Each day i built my strengh not to waste my tears for missing him and now i can smile just like i never have him b4...this is my experience n i'm sure u guys also have your own love story ..and this couple years ahead,i rebuilt my life n now i'm happy for being who i am,i go on my own path making way to catch my dream..NEW LOVE??hem..no thanks,no appetite at all..haha...still a long way to go n i got lots of thing awaiting for me to do.but maybe 4 another years ahead..when i was totally cure and ready for it..yahhh,broken heart can be that bad..but its not the end of the world..experiences makes everything..U'll find it in your own way..N now,i still in the midst of finding my self,creating my self for being a real person..

Blessed Sunday~

as usual..this morning off to church around 1015 that the service start at 1030..late!!yeah i noe..kebiasaan..p servis lom start gik pun as we arrive..so not so late la..(still..haha),after church having lunch at Sushi King the Spring *ceh belagak!!*..dh mula ketagih gak ni..pastu tgk muvi The Last Airbender-kesimpulannya besimpul simpul..hahha,boleh tahan gak citer aksi nih,p hero dia a boy name Aang..adorable face n he's superb!chubby pipi dia..hehehe..mmg cukup power arr budak tu sampai rakyat jelata dok belutut dpn dia..haaa..i tell u!=D..dok couple sit ngan kazen aku c meno n the worst part is org dok depan dia tu leher panjang..annoying sungguh!!sakit ati c meno hanya dia yg tahu..hahaha..the main sponsor is my sis monique n bro aboon..mcm biasa =D tengsss!muvi finish around 1630 staight away going back n having tea..makan kek yg we bake last saturday..(blom abis kah????!!)..yeah blom..jimat kahkahkah...almost 7 buk msk dapur tolg sis msk ,mkn,anta sis g keja n now i'm blogging..haha..fun sunday!thats it..daaa..

makan dadah cara saia..

~memperkenalkan makanan antisihat yg menjadi kegemaran saya.kata org,kalo kuat mkn masam2 ni bdn xnak gemok..(nina said : Ooooo),esen alu gak..mmg i slim river pun,pa ku duli..life for eat!!ngeee..bahan2nya adalah..



1. Limau Kasturi
~murah...satu tompok satu ringgit jak di pasar tamu,kalau ada tanam d rumah lagi bagus..jimat kos..haha,mmg masam tahap ICU kalo xbiasa mkn masam..n lepas tu:



2. Samboi
~ni pun murah gak..nampak harga tu.RM1.oo sepeket,senang cari bha nie..misti yg merah gak baru nyaman..dgr tu..dan:



3. Fresh Juice???
~heee..gambar hiasan,air biasa pun xpa,kalo2 aus@tlalu msm bole minum.persediaan awl gitu la..

cara2nya-->kasi bersih itu limau,potong 1/4 bhgian atas(tangkai) limau tuh..den celup2,cumbat2 samboi dalam limau tuh..den dah boleh dinikmati semahu2nya..senang,nyaman,masam,murah..n saya ketagih,2la dadah saya kakak said!

p/s : thats what i mean drug..the thing/food that i'm addict with.*not heroin,ganja,kokain or whatsoeverrr..pleaseee!

cakes for weekend!!yay!

hyeeee..i'm back after a blastful weekend.The picture above obviously tell u guys bout what i'm going to story...hehe..so,no need to story it out la..haha,kidding bahhh..orait,nyamannn!nahhh..telan air liur korang,cheese cake n chocolate cake..cheese kakak yang buat so aku buat chocolate cake..merekah coz over heat kakak said..p nyaman wooo..siyes xtipuuu..we do it on Saturday morning for the cheese cake while chocolate cake in the evening..n...it still available till now..maok ka???=D

me in bidayuh costume

mcm ngegeh jak kan..who cares by the way,hehehe..my 1st picture using tradisional contume.This is bidayuh traditional costume(am not sure which bidayuh)Even salako costume pun i havent try yet..nang apalah niena tok.Own by the elder..pose by the youngest..kakak aku punya baju during her wedding last 4 years..sbb in our wedding culture,selain gown putih,pengantin akan bertukar kpd baju tradisional ikut kemahuan masing2 selepas bersanding..so..how do i look?xla ku mntak puji just mok tauk pendapat korang yg xlas dr sudut ati...hehe..location:tepi kolam bapak..dah home made shooting kan..2la dia..look like tempat peranginan jak view d blakang tuh..hehehehe...

funny thing by sinting people..warning:18sx

haha..tajuk melampau!happen during weekend xtvts d kpg..me n bala kaban kpg Rukam p manda d pulo aik | sumwer in Lundu | inilah yg berlaku bila dah kehabisan modal..terfikir benda yg xterfikir oleh org lain..naik krem perut aku ktwa..mmg gila tahap gaban tp km hepy giler2..ekekeke...p/s:jgn lupa pause dulu lagu yg dh sedia ada kt blog ni..utk sound effect yg lebih mantap..paka..?

lets meet chip da big head creature

first of all-->introducing my big head creature..hahaha..sorilah gambar mcm kes dera,btw 2la pc taim ku kasi jemur itu creature,agak melampau jak bunyi..sekali sekala kasi mati itu bakteria mak bilang dulu..*whatever* yang pastinya ku sendiri pun xtau sejauh mana kebenarannya teori mak aku yg skul takat taun 6 tu..ngahahah! (durhaka mode)..nama dia CHIP ala yg dalam katun chip n dale..DALE ku xtau pa cita,mayb tgh acting karg ni..okeyla,story mcm mana aku boleh dapat katon xcukup bitamin ni xdapatla hamba ungkapkan disini..*kasi korang frust ckit*..heeee..kisah lampau melampau laut cina selatan..kah3..


yeahhhh..tgk gambar pun dah tau pa sa mo cakap kan..teman baik ato orang putih bilang 'best friend'..dia mmg baik sbb xpng sakitkan ati aku -->2 pun sbb mulut dia bejahit, setia-->2pun sbb dia xlaku sbb kpla besar sgt,sentiasa temankan aku d rumah, xpnh mintak mknan aku-->2pun sbb dia xsuka makan ( ^_^)..haha..i'm talking craps sudha ni..



..dan yang penting..ada kisah tersendiri disebalik aku dan chip,peneman tidur yang xkan pernah merungut walau air liur ku meleh padanya sekalipun (euwww..paka?)..sekian..

bila abang dah bebini

this is the big day of my big bro..Jiken & Shirley Sofia (01 August 2010).boleh kata meriah la jugak..happy sakan ngan family n org kampung..sgt2 berpuas hati n terima kaseh to org2 kmpg Rukam yg membantu..ececec..mcm ucapan ketua pgwas dahh..haha..kaler tema wedd abang is pink+putih..sweet kan??kalo tgk lam gmbar tu km 3 guna baju pink..mengiringi pengantin masuk dengan tamborin dance during wedding march..merangkap bridesmaid la gitu..*boleh diterima* hahaha...

lama dh sya xblogging,sekarang bz ngan esaimen..english n moral studies,both exam n esaimen ada..mcm2 jak.p xpa ku boleh redah..i can do it!!i noe..yerrrr..hahaksss!!!datang bulan agikkkk..duduk salah,bediri slh,tiarap slh,telentang salh,mnonggeng salh..main guli salh,,huh!menyampah ku...

its amazing how u can speak right to my heart..without saying a word..u can light up the dark..the touch of your hand says u catch me..wherenever i fall..u say it best when u say nothing at all...She's my everythingggggg..

hurts that i hate!!!

feel sakit d apendik area..rasa cam cucuk2 jak.wonder wat happen actually..
skjap ada skjap xda,smpi 1 ketika tu nak bgn pun xlarat,taim mo p klinik ilang la pulakkkkk..
dh 2@3 kali sy prasan sakit ni..dan yg peliknya ku blom ada seru pun mok p klinik..nang bengong!!
p arinie dh kureng dikit sakit dimana aku dh boleh meronggeng mcm biasa..wakakakakak...

damn bored!!!

boringgggggggggggggggggg~nahhh thats enuff to expressed my feeling right now...long time i didnt meet beach,n u should noe wat's inside my mind now..hahaha..yahh,i want beach..to release depression after cracking my head 4 esaimen..not so much to do 2day,pesbuk-ing+blog-ing..gud enuf to make me feel better..phewwwwwwwwwwwwww!!

tired of facing lapppy

enufffff~only turn off lappy @ 8am today for my bedtime..just to finish my esaimen draft and email it to miss adeline(the tutor).. really2 tiringggggg..huh!Sleep @ 8am n wake up @ 1300,take bath n lunch..continue my sleep till 5..haha,fully charged....malam pg umah Ldez sis in semariang,having fun with nephew baby zack..mucuk2 with him..ahak2...then go back,feel so sleepy to do correction 4 my esaimen...

hari ini dalam diary

tak seindah biasa!!yalah kehidupan yang ku temukan dalam kehidupan ku bersamaNya..hmmmmph!Tadik petang pegi intebiu,kt Pullman hotel..ikut hati malas mok ikut.mau antar softcopy esaimen d kolej pnyer psl tpksa gak ikut kazen pg intebiu cuz ku tumpang nya pg..yalah teyk,ikut ati ku malas mo pg intebiu ya cuz ati tok berbelah bagi..mun ku amik part time job,grenti ku miss xtvt grja lam bulan 6 tok..OH TIDAKKKK!!!not againnnnn...i'll fight 4 it..so aku pg jakla intebiu ya tanpa sebarang perasaan..ahakkkkkkksssss!!mun dpt pun ku tolak jak..hahaha...esaimen draft have to email to miss Adeline(lecturer) by this night for her to check b4 submission date on 17th May..i got not so much to do with it anyway,only a bit final touch here n there..thain i'm done..huhurmmmmm!

New Life in St Faith

aku hepy dpt join youth mbm st.faith..proud to be the body of christ in mbm..n i'm happy that i can join their tambourines group.miss it so muchhhh that i leave it for a couple years ago..God is Good!isnt it..He hears my prayer and He never leaves me behind..Glory Dance to The Lord!!!

for da 1st time~

ahha..learning new things 2day,got another important thing to do besides blogging but still i do..just because i love it damn much!!bloggy gonna be my new place to waste my time after this moment..hak3...who cares???hehe..gonna stepped out,keep in touch..cya!